The Truth Is.....as it is

A lingering thought behind my crooked mind,

Playing with my heart all the while.
Raining eyes seems solace!!
AH..The piercing of the lingering thought!!

The dancing emotions in my heart!

A lingering thought deep behind

Free me cause I need to be living!!

Giving a piece of Life to all things surrounding.
Buck up, forget the Lingering thought!!

Is it worth it?

Living and Giving is The GAME of LIFE!!

Forget the Lingering thought!

Let me get Living and being !

Do I get to choose

To be happy or to not to be!

Being happy is it from with in?

Or things surrounding me?

I think it is a felony!

No body can be forever Happy!

we cannot control 

The inner lucid world
and what surrounds us?
isn't being happy 

a moment alone
it is a felony to want it?

Do I want to be Happy?

Crazy but no, It's but just a moment.

Which for sure is gonna pass by?

Just like the other ones?

My base should be serenity?

Truth behind me?

That I think will sustain?
I quit seeking happiness.

Time Heals..Does It

Time heals, does it!!

The wine that causes intoxication,
result of time spent in brewery!!

Do I believe,
it gets better with time..

I guess not,
it gets bitter more alluding!!

Eyes cannot see the difference
A dream or a reality!!

Mind cannot see
the right or the wrong!!

With time spent in life's brewery,
getting brewed each moment!!
Do we improve or
loose track
where we were or are?

Time is but a cruel joke,
God has his ways of amusing me!!

Time and Healing are his cruel Jokes!!

So much Pain..

The impassioned pain,

I feel in every breath.

Am I dead, still alive,walking!

It feels like there is no cure,no way!!

To ever feel anything never again!

Does it ever get better!

Strange!! to feel more pain seems solace!

Have I gone Crazy Intoxicated by my agony !!

Running so deep and right through my soul!

God I think I will Explode!!

Are you testing to see how much I can endure?
This time it's off limit,

So much sorrow you cannot endure!!

God I know soon I will explode!

Courage

I felt strong and thought of me as being Courageous

In adversity!!

But the illusion is broken and truth reveled

Here I am sitting paralysed with my pain!!

Unable to move or make my heart feel anything!

I wonder what happened to the courage.

What a mockery of me, my belief!!

That Life had to be this!

What I believed of me is not true anymore!

I cannot know me completely unless I know what

Happened to you? Judging by seeing anything from a distance!!

Is the biggest mockery of human intelligence!

I cannot know you from your image.

I need to feel you to know you!!

Witness situations you have gone through!

Before I pass judgments!

Else I will only reach an illusion of knowing you!!

The image not the person behind it!
Courage is the ability to seek truth, reality!!